Fireworks: A Personal Project

Trigger warning: mentions of suicide attempt, depression, and mental health

I’ve always thought I was going to die “soon”. Not in a weird someone is going to kill me sort of way. But more in the I don’t know what happens after X age, that must mean that I’ll just die. Why did I think that? I have no clue. But I still struggle with the thought of living life without an instruction manual. I have struggled with my mental health for years, but I never thought I’d have this sort of grippy sock vacation. Life hasn’t gotten easier since making this. I’d argue that things have only continued to get worse. But the difference? Through therapy as well as medication management and a support system that would walk through hell with me, I am able to withstand the horrors more. It’s not always perfect. Life seldom goes “according to plan”. But At this point in my life, I am here. And I am trying. Every day.

SPECIAL THANKS:

Cody Miller
Adam Buritsch
Haley Hennier
My awesome therapists, Heather and Sara.